clara: grateful ▲

hello!

here's a little update with the arrival of a brand new month!

ive been going out alot recently but it's a different genre of going out. how do i put this? it's like i've hit this age where i either go out to work or go out with my friends and i can literately ask a friend out for dinner/lunch at the very last minute and have it actually materialise. i'm frankly really shocked that i've come to this stage in my life where im actually treated somewhat like an adult (even our bus/train fares are adult prices now) and honestly, it feels kinda overwhelming for me to have this sudden outpour of freedom.

Saying that, i've been working alot these few weeks and i guess everyone would juggle between the thought of quitting or staying because of the money. we're 16, we're kids, we're so not cut out for the working world so it's normal for us to want to eave our job once and for all. but we're 16 and we apparently have alot of things to spend our money on so the decision of quitting never really seem to materialise. i've been working at jack's place for a good 3 or 4 months now and i've had the biggest urge to just throw in the towel for so many weeks. i'll be honest here. the work environment is really really good! everyone's nice (Except one person) and i've grasped alot of new knowledge that may help me in the future! basically the only reason i want to quit is because of that one person that i really dont appreciate being one of the higher ranked employees at my workplace but it really isnt worth it. so i've thought about it and decided that i'll work until end march and take 2 weeks off just to adapt to my new school before i decide if i'll continue working during the school term.

oh speaking of school, we got our posting results the other day and it was a really bittersweet feeling. i got into DBID (diploma in business innovation & design) in Singapore Poly School of Business, my first choice. I was over the moon when i saw my posting results and of course, i had to know where the rest of my friends & clique were going. i found out that i had a few friends in Singapore Poly and my clique had been split into Singapore Poly, Ngee Ann Poly & Nanyang Poly. the worst part was that i was separated from my bestfriend, cm. we really didnt expect it and there was this awkward silence between us when we realised that he was going to Nanyang and i was in Singapore Poly. it took me a good 2 days to settle down before i told him that we were actually both in business courses and it was a really big achievement for the both of us. Im sure this wont screw up our friendship, i hope not. but i still have friends like sherman, cheeyin, daryl etc that are going to SP with me :)

ive actually been doing alot of thinking and i was walking home one night after work, feeling all happy and blessed that so many wonderful things have happened to me. i've never thought about how blessed i truly am up till just recently.

i'm blessed to have a wonderful group of friends that i can count on any day. (weicheng, chunmun, sherman, daryl and delvin) and im absolutely and truly thankful for whoever that made cm and I bestfriends because what would i do without him. im grateful for the amazing friends i made in 4everest and my d&t class. im thankful for my parents for actually entrusting me with the freedom to spend time with my friends and at work and being able to accept my choice for my tertiary education. im thankful for my sisters, that we are able to go to sleep everynight with no anger between us. im thankful for my olevel grades and to be accepted into the course that i really really wanted despite its small class.

i've never been so grateful for everything that has happened to me in my life.

I guess we all need that few minutes just to sit down and reflect on what good the world has brought upon you. only then will you learn not to take things for granted. :)

our d&t class actually went on an outing yesterday because the days spent together in the workshop and the long nights in the cafe brought all of us so close. iceskating > lunch > movie > dinner. thank you for the amazing day yesterday and im sure there are more trip to come! glad to have spent 2 torturous d&t years with you guys!